Friday, 26 September 2008

Due date

Today is the day, approximately speaking of course, that I should of been meeting little Arthur. Of course he may have been early, or late, he may have been a girl, but either way it never came to any of those things. Today is my due date, and not sure what I expected to feel about it really. Maybe I should feel something more, but today just seems like another day in a way. It has been on my mind in a lot of ways this morning, but just in a contemplative way. I guess it is just that I have moved on. My focus at the moment is more on the fact that I am 2dpo then what could of been.

Anyway will just take a bit of time out today to focus on what we have lost, but I feel I have come so far since then. I actually threw away my positive test this morning. It has been sat on my bedside table ever since I got my bfp, and I have not known what to do with it, but this morning I just felt like it was a step onwards. So I guess although today isn't technically speaking a good day, I feel it is a positive day. The sun is shining and I'm looking to the future rather then the past.


DrSpouse said...

Sorry to hear this, it is always a hard day. I'm glad you feel like you can look forward; I remember feeling quite good when I threw out some positive tests a while back.

DrSpouse said...

PS I'm going to be very cheeky and use that as one of my IComLeavWe comments....