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Ok maybe the title is a bit over the top, but was reading Dr Spouse's blog this morning and it has got me thinking about my own view on why I want to adopt.

Even before we started ttc, had the miscarraige and found out about the double uterus I wanted to adopt. For me adoption isn't something that will be a second choice if we can't have kids naturally, but a first choice, although hopefully as well as having our own. I have always wanted(well for a long time) 5 kids, 2 of our own and 3 adopted. If we get to that I will definitely have my hands full!

Anyway maybe it is just the people I know, but opposite to what DR Spouse has found I seem to know quite a few people who adopt or foster. Maybe it has an effect on why I want to adopt, maybe they are just people put in place in my life so I can get advice when I need it, but for me personally it isn't as rare as it seems to be in the general population. Maybe a lot of these people have come into my life so that when we need help and advice there are people there to talk to that will understand. In my family alone I have an adopted aunt, an adopted brother and 2 foster cousins although of those it is only my brother that has had an impact on my life, and that has been a big one. He has shown me how incredibly difficult adoption can be, how many problems you can't fix for people, but also how much you can do to make a difference to a persons life. Even the house that we own has a history of fostering, the people who we bought it off have fostered, and still do foster so many children of so many ages, this may sound completely stupid, but it does feel like this house is supposed to be some sort of haven. I hope that we can restore it to that at some point in the future.

For now though our focus is on the TTC, and tomorrow is my results from the mri!

A few more photos

Here are a few more for this months photo challenge, portraits. They are my friend muso's children, 2 of which are our Godchildren. They are such beautiful children and they really don't help our broodiness, they are fantastic, they are such characters.




Now just a few days left to take some more. I think I have taken more photos in the past month with holidays, wedding, photo challenges and The event put on by church, then I normally do in 3 months!

Only 3 days to go

My follow up appointment is on wednesday, so not long at all until I find out. Hopefully that will be it now, no more investigations etc. Then we will be back on the ttc waggon again most probably. I don't know exactly what I'm hoping for them to say, but I'm just hoping it will be positive and that if we are ttcing again it will be a bit quicker this time.

A few for this months Photo challenge

The theme this month is portraits, so here are my first few. Would love to go and take some in a forest by a stream, but these are just in the back garden for now.

Art exhibition

Well hopefully, all being well, me and at least a couple of friends will be having an art exhibition come mid November! I spoke about it to them last night, and they were so incredibly excited about the idea and really really up for it, so looks like it might happen. It's a bit scary, I'll have to stick at things I feel confident with, and they are both fantastic artist whereas I'm just me, but looking forward to it! Just need to actually ask about the venue and organise it now! And get arting!

Started a painting this morning anyway. So far only done a silver background so nothing to show, but will post when it's getting there. I need to restock up on a few things at the moment too, so after I next get paid it will be a trip to the art shop.

And the other side of life

Seemed odd putting this in the same post as the holiday snaps so thought I'd do it separate, but today was my husband's grannies funeral. It was just a tiny family affair, they are having a big service at her home church on another day, but the service itself was lovely. I met one of his aunt's and a cousin I hadn't before, but it was just such a shame that there was so much tension between the 2 sides of the family. I suppose it is different for me as an outsider, but it just seemed really awkward, although perfectly friendly and civil, between the two sides. Anyway no point me getting involved in any family disputes, I'll just be friendly to them all, especially on a day like today.

As a little aside I found out today that said granny's birthday was the same as little Arthur's due date. I knew they were similar times but I hadn't realised it was that day. I know he never got as far as a birthday, he may of been a she, and even if he had been born it's very unlikely to have been on the due date, however it's nice to think of them celebrating together in heaven.

A couple of holiday snaps

These are just a few of the night time ones, I didn't have a tripod so they are a bit blurred but not bad considering.

We had an absolutely lovely time, the weather was gorgeous, we had some lovely food, was a great, if tiring holiday. Came back on sunday, which was a very long days travel with a taxi, 2 planes and a coach then a train then a lift, but glad to be home, or I would be if the weather had come back with us. so much for a british summer, give me an Italian one every day!!